6.29.2004
These days are HOT HOT HOT in Taiwan.
These days the sky couldn't be bluer...
and the ocean couldn't be greener.
Ryan:
"You know why the ocean is blue and kinda green?"
I:"Uhm.....well..."
Ryan
:"That's because we have blue sky and the ocean just the reflects the sky, so it's blue," "the ocean itself has no color, it's transparent."
I
:"Oh....." "Wait a minute, no color? ARE YOU BLIND???"
Yeah, Jichi beach couldn't be more beautiful last summer when we went visiting again and again...
These days Ryan's Computer was broken...
These days the apartment was pretty...."empty" and that feels great...I could even feel the breeze coming from the 16 floor while the weather was actually burning outside...
These days I picked up my diary every night and put it down the next second...
These days lots of friends are leaving the town...
These days I had friends coming back to town and hanging out again as well.
These days life seems different then usual...
These days I started thinking about these days...(Oh, so glad I had a mail from a long and far away friend....)
These days I didn't know what I was writing...
These days...bla bla bla...b l a bla bl a bla....
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6.25.2004
I woke up this morning and looked at the sky outside the window from 16 floor in our building. I saw the most beautiful and the bluest sky since last winter in Hualien. :D So blue therefore the clouds became so white hovering the high green central mountains.
"Ah...I miss flying on a plane," a thought just pop out in my mind and the times I flew high up the sky and over looked the snowy clouds and mountains when traveling.
I miss traveling I guess, if not all the flying, that is. I miss Bali every time I read about the traveling journals from other people who went to Southeast Asia or just even the ads from news papers. I miss Bali, the smell of it, the beautiful white magnolia found everywhere on the island...Of all the places I've been to...Why do i miss Bali the most?
Ah...It's summer. And Bali is ALWAYS summer. Summer, my favorite season.
Blue sky, the snowy clouds, the ocean, the salty scent of wave with my sunscreen, my white and flowery shirt i am wearing......Jeeeeeeeeeee....Can't believe i am still sitting here in front of a stupid computer typing these crabsss...
Bali. I miss you :uhoh
iris :/
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6.23.2004
Am still wondering why the hell i'm writing my personal stuff here....How honest can I possibly be here? I have more than three diaries, one i keep in my bed, one, a handy notebook in my car, and one I always carry around with me... I write here and there...Indeed, here and there, that so means I sometimes don't write at all.
Am such a lazy person...
Hualien has been sooooo unbelievably HOTTTTT!!! I am going crazy with the over-conditioned stores and the hot city. It's like 24 hours nonstop hot and cold spa...and MORE!!
Except that freaking heat, I have done pretty much these days...seems like there are forever on going "Goodbye Party" here in this town. Been two of them now and there's one to come on Saturday.
Honestly I don't like them all that much...they seem just lost the meaning of it sometimes...or I'm just being real cynical.
Rode my bike down to Leeyu Lake for the Dragon Boat Festival yesterday with Ryan. Felt like I've never lost my patience like that before, the heat and the dead ends of the road just killed me. And my cranky knees added more...
Dragon Boat???? Forget it!!!
What's the meaning of writing of a blog? 50% complaining and 50% wailing...
boowhoo...
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6.17.2004
Don't know is it because this heat in June, or just the same all days...Or just everything...But that makes my mind go totally BLANK. There's something for sure to write about....But...Is it really?? :confused
I had great morning anyways. Went to my nephew's elementary school to pick him up this noon. I was lost in the little maze of the school, so I stopped and asked a little cute girl who was sweating in her forehead with red cheeks. She told me where to find John, my seven year old nephew in Grade 1. She described so detailed that it was impossible to not finding it. "Oh, just go to the very very end of this building, and then go up to the second floor and you turn right and you keep walking until you see the water filter, and you will see the class room right behind it." I thanked her, and found that classroom. On the way, I saw several kids all with great smiles and the cheeks that couldn't be any redder. Man, I love kids, they simply made my day when they said hi and smiled at me...
I miss my old people's college class. They have a summer break now. Maybe those pretty and innocent faces of kids in John's school reminds me those cute old students. I miss their smiles...
Yeah...Sometimes there's really nothing to write about, but when you think of it, sometimes there are tons of them in the same time.
Mmm....Life is full of contradictions. And I am just freaking
LAZY!
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6.14.2004
Have you ever felt yourself getting old?
Sure... I guess everyone has!
For most of time, the idea of getting old frightens me. Not exactly the worries of getting wrinkles, dry skins and grey hairs, but the thought of really getting old, aged... I mean getting old age seems to suggest that we are under some limits of doing things, like going crazy for whatever reason, like doing things irresponsibly, like the pressure of getting married and having babies...like getting a REAL job! Hooa...
Funny thing is besides those same all worries of aging, I saw a positive side of it---> the changing of thoughts. A more mature thoughts about life, to be precise, as getting old. I've noticed that my thought of falling/being in love has changed now. I used to remember the heard-beating moment of the first dates, first kisses, the feeling of the first hand touches...Not that, I completely ignore these moments, only i value them less now. Instead what impresses me more is that, being in love for me now is the thought that I know there's a person waiting for you to come home amd ask me "How was your day?" And what's constantly in my mine is the thought of that person who sends you from time to time a ";-)" smiling face in your cell phone and nothing more...
Am I getting old? Pretty much so, yes. But I just learned that it doesn't necessarily mean all the negative side of life. There are more bright side of it as well, just that ... Whether a person is ready and open to explore that other side of aging...
Last night me and R sat down on the tatamis, and checked all the best shots we have through the trips we had and through just everyday life... It was fun! Never done that with a guy before. So we have a photo album! Does that mean we are getting old as well? Mm...hopefully a "good" kind of getting old...
iris
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6.10.2004
Last evening, I had a talk with a long friend J...Every time I see her, it would be a long while since the last time we met. It seems we are always busy with our own lives and never really have any stamina to sit down and have a chat. Anyways, I always have this funny feeling that we become stranger enough for not talking in a long while, yet familiar enough that we still have some memory to talk about. Funny because when she talked about her recent life I sat there finding myself thinking about other things, simply because I was so out of it, and it all sounded so foreign to me...(Oops! I guess I am not a good friend). However, when we talked about things that we have done together, the memories came back and I found myself interested with the topic again...mmm....What was wrong with me???
So that was my meeting with J, bringing my photos of HK with a little souvenir for her. It got me think when we parted...about how life could change from time to time. Does friendship really stay? mmm....I guess so, only it seems never stay the way you always want. Man...we are really lazy and selfish from that standpoint...
The typhoon didn't really hit Hualien yesterday...Brought lots of rain, and most significantly the coolest first several breeze after the subtropical storm! I love it!
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6.09.2004
So I finished my two and half days in Hong Kong! What can I say about the city but "
Wow!"...if you have been there as well.
HK is amazing, the way I think a big city should be...spent my entire trip mostly walking and thus saw pretty much of it. Man...it's even too huge to just to think what to put it here in blog. It's like...a dream come true but not excatly..mm...more like...um...being able to walk into one of Jacky Chen's Kong Fu movie set in Hong Kong. Don't know about other people I felt constantly sore on my neck and my legs...But still, I wanted to see more and to explore the city more.
Mm...I guess I am not a good writer describing this trip. Anyways, the trip has been unbelievably wonderful, not only my companies, Ryan and his best friends, Kevin and Shannon, but also, my feeling to put all the experiences down is like the size of the city...to wide and to huge to describe.
However, I am sure my memory of this trip will come back to me little by little as I keep writing my life, if not all, in this blog.
And, (oops bad habit of me starting a sentence by "and", oh well)
who am I writing for?? Haha....myself...so who am I be reponsible to reading such crab? Myself...hahaha....
A big typhoon is going to hit the central island of Taiwan tomorrow...saw a purple and pinky sky this afternoon! Felt like i am home, again!
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6.02.2004
A sudden rain stroke Hualien this afternoon...I realized what the "Guan-li Guy" down our building said to me was right...
"When you feel the air is so thick and it's not moving anywhere....it's a sign of heavy rain!"
And yeah...the air today was really thick that I couldn't even breathe! And there, the pouring rain just fell like that when the town was not yet ready...
Feel like my emotion has just swept by such unexpected sudden rain these two days as well...
Last night was a big night for me!!
I came home a bit late from a long day! Nothing was bad about the day...but I found myself extremly unhappy and was trying to denite the passive "me". I felt so sorry that whatever Ryan said to me with great excitment I had to say exactly the opposite of it, got to say something bad against him!!! So Ryan figured there was something not right about me (like he always does). And he stopped and dig them all out from me...that was whatever I subconsciously wanted to burry and hide.......So there, I had a huge night....with the heavy rain in my mind...
Like to say, "thanks Rye! for knowing me and always making me smile again!"
And now, my feeling's like the fresh breeze after the afternoon sudden rain...feeling so good and excited about out short trip to H.K.!
"I'm leaving on a jet plane.....", la la la...
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Suddenly realize i am still very new to writing a "blog"...lots of stuff here I don't know how to use! Oh well, I guess I will learn by time...
My first night in a long time that I sleep alone! Feels so funny without R around....
A week ago me and my boyfriend R started to talk about his biking trip up to Ho-hwan Mt. I was excited just like him, thinking what to prepare for his meals...So today and last night we started to prepare for his trip. (Yeah...am not going with him, cuz my biking "skills?!" are not that good since I just started to bike...and just for fun!) So I made some rice balls for him and helped him packed...and everything.
He set off this afternoon, and we said goodbye for short at the resturant door this everning! Parted him and wished he a very fun and nice trip....
But, man....I feel so funny being alone and not having him around....
I guess 5 months of dating and being really together means alot more than it sounds....
Now my excitment of his going away has gone..somehow...and funny that somehow I wish he could be right here beside me!
"Have a very nice ride R~"
���閬�: Feels funny...inside...
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Does anger say all? Have you ever felt that sometimes the situations in your life is a little bit frustrated, a little bit out of control, and a little bit obeying your expectation?? I know you must know the feeling, too... Today, I walked to my little blue Honda with a sunny mood, like the weather of Hualien this afternoon. I unlucked the door and as I was getting in my car, I noticed something was a bit weird! There was glasses shinny all over the ground... My windshield was intentionally (as least it looked like so) hit broken!!! The glass was broken like the christal spiderweb.......... I was totally stunned! Shocked with an very very unspeakable anger!!!! "Who da hell did this????" I wanted to kill that person!! But my reason little guy in my head calmed me down and I drove my poor "liitle blue" to the car repairment....................... Aven my friend, who I was supposed to meet at a local coffee shop, showed up and took me in her scooter! Later She took me in her scooter and drove around the town. I was appreciated the company, although I couldn't really squize any smile in my face... Thank you Aven for trying to make me smile! I am now as I think of your company for today! So, yeah...I guess sometimes "anger" doesn't speak all of your emotions, yet "anger" is probably the only powerful emotion that comes out from all kinds of complicated blended feeling of the day!
���閬�: Not comfortable...spiritually!
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Found this cool site today...
I have been looking for a blog here for a while, and I just found this today! Set-up the forms of my blog. And hopefully it will work out!
It's starting to rain outside of my window ....AGAIN!! Sigh....oh well, at least we had a nice and cool weekend here in Hualien!
Just finished my teaching english to my lovely lovely old people of my town. Their smiling faces are still printed in my mind! I taught them to sing "Leaving On A Jet Plane" today, telling them this is my favorite song! They couldn't really pick it up the song, yet they seemed to enjoying the rythem and wanted me to sing for them...
"What???" I said.
"Yes, didn't you say this is your favorite song ever? Then let us sit back and enjoy your singing!"
"Um......i....um...." I was actually chocked drinking my cranberry juice.
"Oh come on, teacher.....please...."
So I did...I guess I was a little nervurs, but I finished the whole song the way I always hum.
Maybe my voice was a bit to weak...yet, I sang for them, cuz I really really love my old friends!!
���閬�: Cheez I am really thristy right now!
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