i was sitting down at the tea table in our living room....i was drinking my (ryan's) coffee...
the tv was on...it was about the non-stop showing and talking about the south asia tsunami....
holding the coffee, the next thing i knew was that i couldn't watch it anymore, and my tears ran down of my face... and that was my first thing of this morning.
however, the bright side of my day today was that i finally met this cool and cutest four-year-old kid james when i fooled around this afternoon in ryan's class. those kids are under seven, they are so innocent and so cute. Every one of them showed me how much they have learned in the class, not only by showing me they can read, books by books, they actually chatted in english the whole time.....i was amazed. I have got many sweet little smiles and hugs already! I love those guys!
walked out (i mean struggled out, because i was wrapped and tight up by those little arms and legs when i tried to walk to the door), said goodbye to the angels, i realized there are still other parts of world where people, especially, babies, kids are suffering and hopeless.
i keep thinking about what this four-year-old girl's word in taipei airport when she screamed so angrily with her little spoilt princess tone to the journalists:
"Stop, are you guys idiots? Don't you know if you kept asking me what happened in the tsunami, it will just give me nightmares!!!"
apparently she has survived from the tsunami but lost one parent....
i cried when i saw the image of her grandfather holding her and she only closed her wet eyes saying 'grandpa, grandpa....'
i just wish that i could somehow help, help more ...
i r i s posted at 12/30/2004 |
the idea of lots of partying during the Christmas and the new year still scares me. the idea (actually turning into reality now) that after non-stop of shopping thinking what to send to friends, relatives and students to actually buying them and wrap them....and you got to kinda wrap youself up, too...for the parties....whoa! Fun?? maybe!
i had weirdest dreams lately, a lot of times, (even when i'm teaching) i'm contemplating those strange scenes and dialogs i had in my dreams. now i'm still thinking the one from last night. it was dark, i opened my car door and got in. as i sat on the seat, i saw lots of little pink notes attached on my windshield, one lapping after one...most of them said that someone had missed me many times, and "he/she/they?" had been looking for me but always failed. i sat in the car, stunned...,thinking who would that be? How could they get in my car???? I got lost reading all those notes people left...then all of a sudden i saw a good friend of my J holding a big bag of potato chips running towards me. i asked her to get in the car and she started to tell me how hard to find me lately, and how she missed hanging out with me. next think i knew, we were eating that bag of chips, having great time eating and chatting.........
and i'm still thinking...
a friend, a very unique friend just wrote me a long email. a long one, and a rather sad one with the title "Farewell".....
so i'm thinking...thinking without knowing exact what to write, adi!
i r i s posted at 12/22/2004 |
Stop!!! Stop bugging me you damn mosquitoes........making such an annoying noises with your ugly wings!!! Stop bugging me before i kill you all, i'm trying to write a blog here!!!
i r i s posted at 12/15/2004 |
sometimes the great moments in life just pass like a second or two.
i feel that way when i "graduated" and finished my masters after all those papers and exams........
and i feel that great moment again on my birthday. Whoa! i guess being twenty-nine was that difficult at all. On the contrary, I think i'm gonna have a lucky one just because that was pretty damn good birthday i had!
So, how does twenty-nine treat you? Now, i just like to sit down and lay back...just relax! Thank you, friends. I wondered how did you all know that i had a little phobia of this birthday??? ha! you guys rock!
Thank you RYAN!:) I think i just had a best birthday ever in my life......(except...where was my birthday cake???)
i r i s posted at 12/12/2004 |
i'm feeling lucky on my birthday...or my coming birthday..tomorrow.
got all these presents from my family and my friends with me now. All of a sudden i feel kinda guilty............ i've been trying so hard not to spend momey on shopping...you know just normal girls shopping...for so long so that i could pay my bank debts and try to save a little bit for my journey.
! : a nice warm winter coat. yellow, too! i love yellow!
@: a lovely anna sui perfume! God my friends know me and love me!! he he....
& :a pair of home made romantic fragrant candles from another town when my other close friend bought me when she went traveling.
*^^: a nice pretty deep purple shirt from an old student...
And what's great about this is that all my friends managed to make sure i get them and wanted to give the gifts to me in time!!!! wow........i just realized how lucky i have been to have those awesome friends! really......
Oh...i don't even know what he's gonna surprise me with...he he he.....
so yeah, quilty..real guilty feeling now in a strange combination of luck...if you know what i mean ;)
i r i s posted at 12/10/2004 |
My today has 3 parts! (thanks James!)
well, the first part: 9 am to 12:30 pm.
i was waking up real slowly....i didn't know how i made it actually....
But i made my way. I walked lazily to the living room. Man, was it a beautiful day...the bright sunshine swallowed me! I could see the glowing dust in the empy living room. Real quiet morning...No sounds at all, just me sitting lazily, no movement, i guess i was still trying to wake up. Ryan has gone to work....who knows when.
the second part: 12:31 to 4:30 pm.
Ariel called, thank god, breaking the awful silence. (first time i felt so silent in our livingroom)
She asked in a even more sleepy voice if i wanted to go out for a tea or something. I said yes.
So we had tea, and went out to downtown "windowshopping". Guess I am real cheap lately...saving for the coming up trip. It was fun. I forgot how much i liked to hang out with Ariel. She has been missing from tons of work for a while (me too, i think), and now she's "temporarily" unemployed now. I like that secretly.
the third part: 4:31 to 9:30 (end of work) Parted my friend, i went to the high school where i work. Really to make some loads of copies, tests for my students tonight. man...it was the worst part of my day.
what can i say? I used about 5 copy machines. Guess what?
Each one of them got broken once i touched it!
That basically ruined the rest part of my day. Conclusion? Copy machine SUCKS!
so, that's about my today.
i r i s posted at 12/07/2004 |
i was sitting here thinking...thinking about what to write until i saw this:
"How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live." --Henry David Thoreau
and...i am still thinking....hungrily!
i r i s posted at 12/06/2004 |
i don't know about you but i really really hate tHe BLoG ThAt uSeS thIs KinD oF wOrDS, and sorry and no offense, but what is with the blog that comes out also with scary crystal music and some pop songs and the actually writing are so freaking small to read and the worse part is when you click on all the bullshit little squares....YOU CANNOT GO ON CHECKING THE "NEXT BLOG" Oh well.
Anyways, i had a free lunch with my sis' family at a great hotel in hualien and my day was actually not bad at all. i liked it! Two happy moment i had:
a) went out with my sis lucy and my nephew John to the arcade and had great fun! Of course john wasn't too happy about the fact i also secretly like to play thoses games and i stole 5 coins from him. John's 8 and I'm.....................28!
b) later in a clothing shop, i saw this hilarious little girls. I think they are sisters say like 5 and 3. they were running all over the floor and the little sister kept running after her sister sceaming to her "mommy, mommy....where is mommy???" "Mom..." So the older sister got annoyed and stopped to yell at her: "Shut up you!! Your mom is here!!!" The three-year-old little girl stopped running and stood there looking at her sister without a word for a long while..... Don't know if anyone would think it's funny. But i was laughing my ass off cuz it sounded so much like my sister and my brothers.
Looks like another typhoon is going to hit us again. A typhoon hitting taiwan is nothing strange but what's odd is this typhoon might hit us in winter, december, which only happened once about a 100 years ago........