6.14.2004
Have you ever felt yourself getting old?
Sure... I guess everyone has!
For most of time, the idea of getting old frightens me. Not exactly the worries of getting wrinkles, dry skins and grey hairs, but the thought of really getting old, aged... I mean getting old age seems to suggest that we are under some limits of doing things, like going crazy for whatever reason, like doing things irresponsibly, like the pressure of getting married and having babies...like getting a REAL job! Hooa...
Funny thing is besides those same all worries of aging, I saw a positive side of it---> the changing of thoughts. A more mature thoughts about life, to be precise, as getting old. I've noticed that my thought of falling/being in love has changed now. I used to remember the heard-beating moment of the first dates, first kisses, the feeling of the first hand touches...Not that, I completely ignore these moments, only i value them less now. Instead what impresses me more is that, being in love for me now is the thought that I know there's a person waiting for you to come home amd ask me "How was your day?" And what's constantly in my mine is the thought of that person who sends you from time to time a ";-)" smiling face in your cell phone and nothing more...
Am I getting old? Pretty much so, yes. But I just learned that it doesn't necessarily mean all the negative side of life. There are more bright side of it as well, just that ... Whether a person is ready and open to explore that other side of aging...
Last night me and R sat down on the tatamis, and checked all the best shots we have through the trips we had and through just everyday life... It was fun! Never done that with a guy before. So we have a photo album! Does that mean we are getting old as well? Mm...hopefully a "good" kind of getting old...
iris
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