Don't know what has been wrong now. I feel that life has been so crazy these days. Got offered a part-time teaching job at a high school...yet, man, it is so hard! Not that teaching is hard but to rule the classes has been total challenge to me ever! I have been there for several day now, but I have never felt so frustrated of teaching in my life.
Actually, out of the four different classes, there was just this one "105" that completed deteates me...It is a class of 47 15 year-old PUNKS, i mean, students. Almost all girls... I walked into the room for the first time, the class leader did look up, and after almost five minutes after she started to wake up from her sleeping and started to wake up the rest of class. I started to shout so that they knew there came the teacher. I introduced myself...and I was pretty damn sure that NO one, none, actually gave a shit who I am. Fine! I kept doing what I have to do, the lesson from the textbook...ten minutes or so, half of the class were already asleep, and I only fund out because almost absolutely no one read the sentences with me. Another loud shout to wake them up and making sure they know where the page we were, they even began to take out they mirrors to do their make-ups in less than one minute!!!! "Umm.....Hello~~~~"
truly unbelievable...I think to myself, these punk girls were either testing me or they really didn't care. Maybe they were trying to see if i would be scared away like the last FIVE english teachers!
Mm....there, my first day of teaching nightmare was that. Although it was pretty disarranged and tiring..all that...I decided to give it another shot the next day...(Oh, did i mention that I have to see these 105 punks five times a week???)
So, with full preparation of teaching plans i made before and a microphone they required...I walked in the classroom and ready to try to be their friend again. I started by giving the principles/rules of my class. No talking, no sleeping and no making up!!! They were pretty quiet for a minute...and than those mirrors and pillows and talkings and joking around were out again. This time, I didn't even bother stopping them. I thought my grammar and if they wanted to learn, they would. There probably be about 10 girls wanted to learn. And "fine" I thinks, I will just teach them. However, after couples of turning down on my requests and saying "no, and I don't want to and I don't know" I knew I had to gain their faith and friendship again. So I stopped the serious teaching and gave them a ten minute break.
Get this, and this is how I decided that I was a total loser to them and that I gave up!
me: "Ok, ok, be quiet, be quiet now..." "I know this is boring to you, why don't we have a little chat here, so that we know each other better...:)"
A complete silence.........
classleader: (shouted)"Sure, teacher, ok, why don't you tell us now what color of underwear you are wearing...or you are not wearing any???? Tell us first..if you want to chat with us..."
"haha....ha..ha...ha............." the whole class burst out laughing and laughing.........
So, I was defeated as they wished. But what am i to lose?? I really have no idea...
Students are a mystery,so hard to try to figure it out, and I guess they will always remain that way to me!