10.18.2004
sitting here in a internet cafe...i'm thinking what to write within the 2o minutes left for this one hour time limit...
yeah my laptop in the room is fuckedup...and here i'm sitting in this smoky netcafe and using this gross key board again...
why am i writing a blog?? this question just stroke me minutes ago.....
yeah, why exactly?? not an easy answer for me at least!
i write a blog because just incase someone might be interested and read it??? maybe! not completely!
i write becasue there's a slightly hope that i could be a writer?? Haha....who am i fooling??? No!
I write because my friends and maybe my family can understand me more, somehow?? Mm...perhaps for my friends....my family??? i hope they never find out!
i write beacause i could be seen and maybe get some responds from others??? Ha ha....NOPE! although, it's always nice to get some comments, good or bad.
i guess i got it...i write because i kinda interested in why people want to do it by doing it myself...and i write it because my hands happen to be free, and my eyes are not reading my books or watching any tv or movies...
i write because... i wanted to know how true and honest i can be while i'm presented in the public. yup! that's it...now i remember why i started it all of a sudden!
and maybe sometimes there's just no absolute answers to any questions....
damn! i was gonna write how shitty and "foolish" today has been and how many surprises life could sometimes bring you...even when you are so frustrated snd full of dread.
iris
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