6.26.2006
An email has just reawakened all my feelings about traveling. Traveling, what a weird thing that makes you feel so itchy to 'leave.'
It often makes me wonder why and how just the simplest processes such as checking out or going through customs. Getting stamped, the act couldn't be simpler, yet they can give people so many complex feelings. I don't know about you, but at least to me. Looking back, traveling itself was not always fun nor safe. But there was always the sense of adventure and perhaps danger in every little town we arrived in. I remember, well, not looking down at the ground, not even looking further than one meter from myself just to avoid any 'shock.' I remembered starving, only because I just couldn't believe the odor which I smelled everywhere was actually from the restaurants. I also recall my insistence on finding a supermarket only to quench my thirst for home. While traveling, I was ill and barfy for weeks, I felt the scorching heat that literally stopped my breath, I cried on the roadside feeling so close to death that I could not stop shaking for over an hour.
Sound pretty horrible. But, would I ever want to be on the road again? The answer is 200% yes, and I wouldn't even waste a second to doubt. Yes, I have been through the bad parts as well as the good of traveling. But I am glad to say that I haven't been through them all. There are greater moments to come, and worse parts of the journey to be expected, too.
The traveling seed has somehow been planted and is growing inside me, there isn't a second that goes by that I'm not getting ready to lift my backpack and travel again. Traveling has changed me in so many ways. In ways only travelers would understand. If only you know what I meant.
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We gave Milo a big bath. He hates it and usually goes wild when he comes out of the bathroom. But he's been pretty sweet lately. Been out walking and running with us with no complaints. Milo is going to be great company, I think. :) Wait...don't get me wrong, Milo is still a total brat 90% of the time!
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6.24.2006
I remember last time of the year when we just go tback from the long the South East Asia trip, the weather in Taiwan felt just fine and comfy, in fact, it even felt kinda cool compare to the scorching heat in the SEA. What I don't remember is that this heat in the summer can be so sweltering that you feel like you are in the steamed sauna all the time, and the only eascape is probably the closest
7-11 you can find.
Sitting here in front of the computer typing, I feel like running away...yeah...but, to where?
I started to feel the summer FEVER, and I just sweated more to think the fact that it's gonna last at least 4 months from now before it finally cools down a little bit.
Are you ready for the sweat? I hope I am. Perhapsit's work no traveling, or jsut simply the hot air, I found all my "Yeah, it's summer!" excitmeant all gone this year. Ready for the sweat? I hope I am.
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6.21.2006
In the middle of all these heat and warm summer air, and amist of the trouble kids teaching frustation, I've been thinking, seriously...that maybe this could be cool on me.
Just a wild idea...
Maybe.
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Teaching can be so devastating sometimes! I started this new full-time job yesterday. Before I started, I sat in for a while and subtituted some classes as well. But man, am I ever beat and frustrated at this very moment about teaching. It feels like a monster that sucked all your spirit and positive energy out of your body.
I have this pain-in-the-ass student, R, super spoiled, bad attitude, noisy and REALLY rude, especially to me, of course. The first time we met, she told me: "go to die!" Later in that class, she shouted: "Why don't you jump out of the window here?!" And today, I was trying to be extra patient with her and the whole class. Still, half way through the class, R yelled at me while the entire class was quiet: "You are so STUPID! I want to play 'kill teacher' game!"
I walked out of the classroom, headed down and didn't feel like saying a word to anyone. It was 9 pm as usual. I had had enough of brat kids who either completely ignored my words nand shouted at me with the rude language. I was so beat and felt like a total loser... Indeed, teaching brings one down, and it's truly a job full of emotions.
It's sad to say that after years of teaching, I still can't escape this emotional trap and still bring home most of of the feelings. Days like this make me start to question and wonder if I am a suitable teacher...
"Ah...just a bad day of work", part of my mind keeps wanting to tell me it's nothing, yet the other part of it keeps questioning my ability as a teacher.
Blah.
iris
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6.19.2006
It's been a very long time since I blogged. I wanted to fix it. I looked here and there trying to find the right fit for the blog. Finally, Voila! I found one. Thanks Ryan ;)
Yes, it's been a LONG time since I blogged. Three weeks, I think... things have changed a bit, too.
Two weeks ago, we were trying to work hard for the magazine so that we could have more time when Meghan came. Time flew. Meghan arrived and left just a day ago. (Back to her mother land) With Meghan, we traveled round the whole island. Unfortunately the rain hit us the whole trip. We also took her to every great place in town. Restuarants, tea houses... you name it! Oh, and pubs!
But, life goes back to the daily routine again, Ryan, I and Milo. Except, I got a new teaching job and have to plan my lessons and be serious now.
Time flew indeed, and it always amazes me how people can change over such short period of time. Anyways, lovin' my new blog look? :)
iris
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Just a wild idea...
