11.25.2005
My student jsut called to cancel the class tonight. It's Friday night and i'm not all that excited nor happy about the free hours i gain from the canceled classes...
It's been a long and painful week. Not much got done because of my illness. Last night the stress just added more on my back again.
I was on my way to a student's house. I was late and just when i thought everything will be alright since I've felt much better from the cold and in five second i'd be at the student's door, a big scooter hit my scooter in the back. I tried and managed myself not to fall from the strong crash...and I didn't. But she did. I called the ambulence, the police came.
I felt like a criminal for not being hurt yet someone's hurt because of me (well, sort of...)
I panicked again on the way home today, under the traffic lights and one of the dangerous intersections. i panicked and was so scared that same thing would happen again.....Later I found myself crawling like a turtle on a scooter, hiding my head in every corner i turned.
I think I'm going to ride my bike more from now on. And I think i'll be staying home and let everything come down before i could feel fine and normal again...
Maybe Neil Young's "Harvest Moon" would give me a little tranquility tonight!
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